Home stretch

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Baseball term?
Anyhow - I am in my first week of the final trimester.
I have three months left until I hold this baby in my arms.

It is Saturday morning at 4am. Can't sleep. This time the baby's kicks woke me up and have kept me up. I actually felt a foot, for sure, on the right side of my belly. I have a night baby. Gummy Bear changed schedules this week - used to be quite active during the day, but now, the strong kicks start at around 10:30pm, and continue sporadically throughout the night.
Quelle surprise. My whole family, extended included, are all night people.

My brain is restless. I've got so many thoughts flying around in there. I'm thinking, am I nervous? I guess a little. Giving birth, as you get closer, must get a little scary. I'm not scared as much as I am thinking this is definitely a big moment coming up. I just had a doctor's appointment last Friday, and he said I have one more appointment (which I have once a month), then I start seeing the doctor every two weeks. That really woke me up to the fact that I'm really close to the end, really focusing me in on preparing for the end. Like, the nursery. Ugh.

I even came to the "design" of the birth announcement as I lay awake in bed this morning. Which I am happy about. I should probably sketch it so I can remember to do it. Three months is a long time to hold an image in my head.

I also thought about how I should take up drawing again - yet again. I keep wanting to, but the first time, every time, I try to start drawing again, the pencil feels so awkward in my hand and the result is so hideous from the time I used to draw regularly I am instantly discouraged. Being out of practice really sucks. Perhaps over my maternity leave I really will get into it again. In the meantime, I have found the last sketchbook that I bought with intention to draw that I have not totally turned into a journal.

I ALSO thought about how excited I am to use Christine's old camera. Canon 20D. She has upgraded recently, and so she is lending me her old one. How timely with this new arrival coming. I have to buy a few things for it: battery and compact flash card since Christine will be keeping the ones she has to use with her new camera. I have plans on going "pro" on Flickr so I can share photos with family more easily. I have family in the Philippines, all over the US (Western New York; Arizona; Chicago, IL; New Jersey), on the other side of Canada and with my husband's family, Chile and Sweden, and friends in Germany. I think that I should really love that.

I think that I'm feeling ridiculously creative.

This experience of "expecting" is probably one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I said to Gonzo, I can imagine why women go through post-partum depression: you've got this baby inside you, growing, that you feel so full (figuratively as well as literally) of life. Completely dependent, and with you ALL THE TIME. Even times when the baby is quiet for a lot of the day (sleeping, maybe?) I feel a little lonely. I ask (to my belly), "Where are you?" I can imagine that when the baby is out, of course I'll be overjoyed and overwhelmed by the moment. But I'll also be emptied. I've had such a great pregnancy so far, I can imagine that might even actually miss being pregnant.

I kind of regret not journaling more during this time, but there was so much - even too much - to write about. I could probably write three pages a day about something new I experienced about what pregnancy is all about, the thought of what preparing to be a parent is like, all the things I learned about myself and Gonzo together... I think I turned those times of writing into naps. I probably should record some highlights soon.

Print & Pattern

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Oooh. Pretty!

Sleepy Face

Gonz has strep throat.
I have sent myself to the couch to sleep so that Gummy Bear and I don't catch it. Imagine trying to get over strep throat without the use of antibiotics. Yeah, I can't imagine it either.

[Before you hurl insults at Gonz for letting me sleep on the couch and not insisting he does, he already did that. I am actually happy for the couch. Helps me not sleep on my back (which is bad for the baby, and me).]

So, I'm pretty tired, but I can't sleep. Not because the couch is uncomfortable. It's super comfortable. But I'm coming to the point in the pregnancy where I'm feeling very warm most of the time, which makes it kinda hard to sleep. AND ALSO, Gummy Bear is doing really funny stretches which makes me laugh. And therefore, keeps me awake.

Sorry for the lame blog. I am pretty tired.

Spatially Challenged

Friday, September 21, 2007

My very huge weakness of not being able to visualize and estimate volume is most problematic when I am cooking. When I am cooking with many ingredients. Like right now. Right now I am making stew. Sans recipe. By imagination. Brutal.

After cutting up too much short rib (only half of what I bought at the supermarket), and then puree-ing too much tomato, my pot suddenly became FAR too small. My recipe is now half in my pot on the stove and the other half is in the slow cooker. Geez I am so frustrated. I thought I'd grow out of this from the time my sisters and I wanted to make my mother a dinner for mother's day (or her birthday or something) when we were teenagers. What ended up happening was the same dish in different pots, pans and a wok on all four burners.

Okay, well, I'm not that bad anymore. And my mother won't end up sick after my cooking.
With those two things I will have to console myself.

What I whipped up today

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Gonzo and Chris were talking about doing this video since August. They are launching the high school ministry under a new name this fall. But their schedules never clicked. So, it came down to the wire: Chris asked me yesterday. They need the video for this Friday. After finding out exactly what he wanted, I agreed, and wasn't too bad either. Probably 30 minutes of shooting video, and then an hour of editing. Oh, I didn't mention that I had to climb up on the roof of the church to do this. Two ladders, actually, to get to the highest point of the church. I had a few warnings and reprimands from coworkers, being six months pregnant and all. No worries. I am okay.

Really nice music for the video. Chris chose the theme track from a show called, "Friday Night Lights." Sound like I have never heard of it? Well, that would be because...

Anyhow, here's the outcome of today's work.

Secondly, here is the logo I am proposing for this year's Missions Convention. The theme is "together" - wanting to convey a strong sense that Missions isn't the missionary's work, but all of ours together. I hope it flies. (Oh I welcome any criticisms too).

From Christine, today

Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Happy Anniversary to Us

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

It was our anniversary! we got married 3 years ago today. When Gonzo kissed me goodbye when he left for work that morning, I said, "Happy Anniversary babe." and he said, "3 years? seems longer." of course it seems longer when you've almost been together with someone for 10 years. That will be this November 17. A decade. Three years is only the official part of this relationship.

We couldn't think up anything creative to do for our anniversary, especially since we both had to work anyhow, so a nice dinner it was. (like that's a bad thing when this couple lovvveeeees to eat.) I thought about going downtown to the Distillery District and try a new restaurant, but I was too tired to think about trekking all the down there and all the way back. I just wanted to enjoy the evening with my hubby. We decided to go to Oliver & Bonacini at Bayview Village and that was a great choice.

We ordered their calamari, which was so good: "Jump's Original Grilled Calamari - with anchovies, capers, tomatoes and black olives in a lemon brown butter sauce." I didn't even think that it had butter in it until I just typed that. Good thing too 'cause that would make me not like it (right, Margaret?). Gonzo ordered the roasted rack of lamb with potato and goat cheese gratin, and I had the appetizer sized gnocchi. Baby is taking up all the space in my belly. My stomach is cornered into a space of a fist, it feels like. I've still got the appetite, but don't have the room. BUMMER.

We had super nice service. The waiter was so awesome. I didn't catch his name. Anyhow, the dinner is done, and dessert is a must so I ask him to bring us a menu. After clearing our plates, he comes back and tells us that he can't bring us a dessert menu because dessert has already been ordered and taken care of. And they bring us this:

See, I know someone at O&B from high school - Adrian. He greeted us at the door, and the last time we were there, we were with Steph Liu celebrating our news, so he found out then that I was pregnant. Anyhow, I shared that we were celebrating our third anniversary, so got this nice quiet table in the backroom... which I was hoping for 'cause a couple of times ago we were seated by the bar, and you just feel cramped over there.

Anyway, so we had Adrian to thank for our fantastic chef's platter of desserts. Gonzo and I left feeling seriously spoiled. It's funny how a visit to a restaurant with really great service and equally good food can actually make you feel like you celebrated.

Well - we've had a great three years so far together. Gonzo asked me if these three years were what I expected, and I think I said that I thought they were going to be harder. There were hard moments, but nothing you feel like you couldn't make it through. I turned the question around to Gonzo and he said that he thought we would fight more. Those are two things that are very good things to not have as expected.

So, if you ask us - yes, we would recommend marriage. It's fantastic.

The Death of Summer

Originally uploaded by kathy photo

It's after Labour Day.
The sun is setting earlier. Hang outs will be less outside. Gotta wear more clothes (I'm wearing full shoes today. :-( ). Life feels like it's more about work than leisure.

I'm tired.


That might have nothing to do with summertime coming to an end...


Saturday, September 01, 2007

feasting group
Originally uploaded by kathy photo

tonight we went to jesse and lisa's new pad and had jesse and uncle sam cook for us. they made like 7 dishes! steamed fish, kung pao chicken, super saucy spare ribs, shrimp, vegetables, kofu... and even desserts we had like three courses.

i have a cramp in my back 'cause i'm so full.

it was good to hang out with them again, since i hadn't seen them in a real long time. even dave i haven't really seen either.

good food, and good friends.
God put a good combo together.